The Lunch Scene

  I normally sit at lunch with this girl that I met who also didn't have anybody to sit with during her lunch period. Today, she is not here at lunch. Instead of crawling up in a ball or going to the bathroom to eat my lunch, I spoke to myself and said, "Rachel, you can sit alone and be mature."  Remember when I spoke about doing things outside of my comfort zone?    Well this is by far outside of what I am used to. I always have someone to sit with. I'm not saying that in a cocky way. I mean, even though we may not be best of friends with people we find in our lunch period, there are very few students who sit alone. Today I will say it loud and proud that I am one of those students this afternoon. I can bet that most of the students in this lunchroom as I look around would never have the guts to sit alone in a lunchroom. I feel so accomplished you don't even know. I am more than half way done with the period and I feel stronger mentally. Actually as I look around, I am the only person sitting alone and I am okay with that!  If you ever don't have friends in your lunch period, don't be afraid to sit by yourself. It's okay to and the truth is, when you think people care, they really don't. Just find a quiet table in the corner and you will be fine for the 30-40 minutes of the period. 

   Let me actually tell you why I am also sitting by myself. My sister is in the same lunch period as me every other day. So today happened to be the day she has lunch. Even when she has lunch I sit with the girl I met. I asked my sister if I could sit with her and her words were "NO!"  She yelled those words at me. I honestly couldn't believe it!  In that moment I really cared and was completely offended, but on the other hand I learned not to care about what others think through sitting alone 

   The funniest part of this whole sort of self experiment is that I'm sitting in the corner next to the lunch ladies. Every so often they look over at me in pity sort of!  Sometimes they will give me like a half smile so to speak. Like I'm fine haha. 

   Anyway, I am going to finish my lunch and do some studying for my Chemestry quiz which is soon and ttyl!

Xoxo

Rachel :)