The First Day

     Let me just put it out there, with hormones and being a teen is happening, first days at work can be quite the struggle.  I have never worked anywhere before and I was really hoping that this would be an amazing step into the real world.  It wasn't.  In the summers before this, I haven't had much luck with truly enjoying what I do in the summer.  Today was just not for me.
     As the bus pulled up to my house to pick me up, the nerves began to kick in.  I began to sweat a little bit and my heart began to pound.  I kept reminding myself that I would be fine and this is going to be a fresh start to all of my other summers.  I stepped onto the bus and I was extremely overwhelmed.  Kids were screaming, kids were yelling, the bus counselor was trying to teach everyone a cheer over their loud voices.  It just wasn't for me.  There was one boy who was also working in the same department I was in the camp and he was friendly at first and then just didn't seem that interested in becoming friends with me.  Maybe he was still in the, "girls have cooties" phase.  
     When the bus arrived at the camp, the "fun" was going to begin.  By "fun" I really mean over-whelming counselors trying to find their campers as they step off of the buses.  I mean there were hundreds of counselors awaiting the buses arrivals.  They were cheering, dancing, laughing.  I felt out of place because I almost felt depressed.  Was I suppose to feel that excited too?  
     As I made my way down the steps of the bus, my legs were shaking and I began to feel a sense of regret.  The voice in the back of my head kept telling me, "the day didn't even begin.  Calm down!  Maybe you will like this."  I walked into the office where I am going to be working and I felt a sense of relief.  There were other kids my age working in the office.  A lady who was very kind handed me my schedule for the summer and I just starred at it.  It looked very dull and boring.  
     First period began.  I was working at the security booth with 3 other boys and there was one lady in charge.  She would basically tell us what to do when she wanted us to do it.  For example, if a parent was dropping their child off at camp late, I would have to bring that child to their group on the campus. Not so bad, but boring because that only happened once in a blue moon.
     Thirty minutes later when I successfully completed my first period of the summer, I was assigned to the gym.  Under the description on my schedule about "gym" it said to not allow anyone in the gym with food.  So I tried to find a positive in that assignment.  I stood outside the gym and there was not a soul in sight.  I contemplated that this is what I was going to be doing my entire summer.  I felt like I was going to cry.  That is when my day began to go down hill.  It's like when you think you hit a home run and it just misses going over the left field wall and the ball suddenly makes its way into foul territory.   A bad feeling in the pit of your stomach.
     I'm not going to tell you all eleven periods of my day because that would bore you; I just wanted to tell you about my first day and that I was sort of miserable.  Many of the kids working there didn't seem interested in talking to me.  I felt very out of place.  I didn't felt like this was what I really wanted to do my whole summer.  I am an active person, not a person who would sit in an office all day and do file work.    
     When you are in a sticky situation like this, try your best to make friends or even find a positive in a negative.  I am trying to give you guys advice when you make a commitment and it just isn't working for you but the truth is, I need advice.  I spoke to my parents about it.  If anyone has any advice for me I would love to hear it because I need help on how to go about this situation.  I will keep updating you guys on how it is all going.  
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Saying Goodbye

      Due to the town I live in, most of the people that live here go to sleep away camp.  I went to sleep away camp a really long time ago and I dreaded going.  I terminated my arrivals at camp when I was about 9 years old.  Many of the adults as well as kids thought I had some sort of issue or something because I did do what was "normal" in my town.  They were wrong.  They are wrong.  You don't have to follow what everyone else does.  Since I am my own person, I didn't go to sleep-away camp.  I didn't care about what everybody else did.  Now, most of my friends are going to sleep away camp tomorrow.  Yesterday was my last night to hang out with them before they are going to leave for 2 months.  It was extremely hard and depressing seeing them for a last time.  These people are my family and I love them so much.  All that was going through my mind was, "How could they just leave me?  Why do they go?  Why are they doing this?"  I began to actually feel a sense of anger.  I knew that there was nothing to be angry about but I'm human and I am going to feel this way.  What am I going to do without them for 2 months.  They are amazing to me.  I didn't cry when I was saying goodbye to everyone at my friends house.  I cried in the car.  In the moment, I didn't feel emotional but then it hit me.  I wasn't going to be able to text, call, or see my best friends.  It may not seem like a big deal to not see friends but these people are amazing.  Each and everyone one of my 15 best friends.  They all pick each other up when one is down, and wipe a tear off eye due to laughter.  We are a co-ed group of friends and that is what's amazing.  I could go on and on about my friends and how I am going to miss them but let's just come out of this situation on a positive note.  Since I am going to be working at a camp, I am going to meet new friends.  I am not going to forget about  my friends now but I am going to be as social as possible because they are all gone.  This summer I am going to and will hang out with new people not because I have to but because I need to.  It will help me heal from their departure.    

Have an Open Mind

     So this summer I am woking in a day camp.  It is completely out of my comfort zone.  I did and it was completely out of my comfort zone.  Lastly, I asked my friend to play tennis with me and she couldn't so I contacted my mother's best friend and we played tennis.  That was also out of my comfort zone.  I actually had an amazing time playing tennis and realized that it's okay to hang out with other people no matter what the age difference is or what kind of clothes they wear.  
     My point is that since summer is on the way, allow yourself to not make excuses and live a little.  If an event, party, or anything comes up this summer and you don't know if you should go because your friends might not be invited or whatever, just go.  Make new friends but don't leave the others behind.  Since I am working at a camp which I usually wouldn't do, I am going to strive to meet new people.  Even though I absolutley adore my friends from my town, it's time I extend myself to other people.  You should do the same.  Have an open mind and have fun!    

Intro

    Hello.  This is my first posting ever and I am more excited than ever!  I can't wait to spill my life to the readers out there and I am thrilled to have this amazing opportunity to be able to speak to people and inspire others out there that need help as far as dealing with situations in high school.  I have many stories to share and a full summer to spill all of the details to everyone.  I can't wait for my first real posting and hopefully everyone can understand and cope with situations better.         I am going into my sophomore year of high school and I had an amazing time as a freshman.  Of course there was pressure about the work and keeping my grades up and also preforming well in sports.  I made it through tough times as well as amazing experiences that will stay with me forever.  For anyone going into high school for the first time, just letting you know that there is absolutely nothing to worry about.  It's a lot of fun and you have so much freedom.  Sometimes if you take advantage of the freedom that is given, that may in fact have a horrible outcome so don't do that.  While going into high school, have an open mind about your peers, teachers, clubs, and sports.  Also, don't go into school saying as well as thinking that you have to and will receive straight A pluses because if you one day you take a test and just don't preform the way you normally do, you will become full of frustration and will now just focus on one class and your other grades will drop.          Go into high school with no fear.  Chances are you won't be thrown into a locker.  Those things normally happen in the movies and not in reality.  Just face it, your growing up and people are going to be expecting more from you in all aspects of life.  Just deal with reality thinking, "Yes this is annoying but I can do it and I am going to become better at what I am doing."  You will be fine and when the first two weeks of high school are complete, you will be all settled in and realize it's not so bad after all.