Relief!

I can’t even believe that I made it through this week.  Right now I am sitting in the school library awaiting last period and I am just reflecting on this week.

            It was a tough one but “I made it through the rain!”  It has been a bumpy week with a lot of tennis and tests but I managed to limit the procrastination and it worked!  I aced my Chemistry test and won my tennis match! I feel so proud of myself! 

If anyone is just so addicted to either their Facebook, Twitter, or anything like that, don’t go on it for a week.  It will work and your obsession will decrease and your focus will be schoolwork!  I promise.  I hate when I used to go online and look back at the clock and I wasted a good hour or so procrastinating.

            This morning I didn’t speak in front of the class.  But that’s okay because not that many people did it.  Only three people volunteered.  The teacher then decided that she was going to video tape us doing it and that also made me completely back out.  We still have the opportunity to do it on Tuesday but I really don’t know.  The people that did it put a lot of emotion into the speech and some even became teary eyed.  I would be so nervous I would be shaky so I wouldn’t put as much emotion into it but fearing for myself.

            Anyways, this was just a brief blog because the bell is going to ring in literally 3 minutes.  LAST PERIOD yayaya

Xoxoxo

Rachel 

Should I or Not?

Hey!  So sorry my postings have been so stretched out over the coarse of the weeks!  Anyway, tomorrow in my English class, we have the option to speak in front of the class.  It's a speech from the play Antigone.  For reciting her goodbye speech, you can receive extra credit.  I just hate when teachers put students in positions where they have to truly think about whether they are comfortable speaking in front of the class or not.  I know that I want to be a broadcaster and I should want to speak in front of people, but I just haven't broke through my shell 100%.  I am maybe 65% more comfortable speaking than I was a few years ago; to me that's progress.  I am becoming so worked up over a 1-2 minute speech.  On top of that, my teacher told us that we would have to also wear either a big bed sheet over us or something stupid because we have to make it look like we are from Ancient Greece.  This makes me so nervous I can't even bare it.  Sometimes when I speak in front of a large group, my face becomes scorching hot and I turn beat red, and my voice just goes.  Like I could be speaking and when my heart is racing, my voice just disappears because I have been forgetting to breath.  I know that if I do the speech, I will feel so accomplished.  If I don't do the speech, I will feel like typical me and backing out because my nerves got the best of me.  I am so confused right now because I don't want to mess up and look like an idiot.  I don't even raise my hand to read a paragraph in something we read in class, so how am I suppose to speak standing up in front of the class with a burst of emotion and enthusiasm?  I know I should probably just speak in front of the class to feel the satisfaction that I have been wanting to have from a big accomplishment, but I just don't know.  I would love any comments you have for me because I don't know what to do!! ThankssxoxoxRachel :)<3

Long Time no Speak

  I am so sorry that it has been so long!  I have been super busy with my schoolwork and tests!  I have been overwhelmed and full of stress and anxiety. It's funny because I am suppose to be helping all of you readers out there,meanwhile, I'm having a tough and stressful time myself.  If you are feeling stressed or even if you feel nervous, it's okay. We can get through this. 

   I didn't expect this week to be so overloaded with tests but it is! 

   Anyway, it is getting late but I had an idea that came to me in the middle of last week. I wanted to briefly talk about my school experience right now. I don't mean my homework or teachers, I'm talking socially and emotionally.  

   I have been realizing that the only thing that had me worried about going to the 10th grade was if I was going to have friends in my classes. Now, I have come to realize that the friends that you currently have, may not always be there for you.  In that case, you must branch out and meet new people.  It doesn't mean that your friends from last year can't be your friends anymore, I'm just saying that your friends are teenagers, teens are constantly full of emotion.  Especially teenage girls, they are hard to constantly get along with.  So my point being, branch out. Talk to new people.  No matter what the race, gender, ethnicity, or even background is, talk to new people.  Don't just set academic goals for yourself but set social goals like to say hi to more to people that you know when you pass them in between classes.  If you are an overall good person, your peers and even your teachers will recognize that and it could possibly benefit you in the future.  

It's getting late and I have a chemistry test tomorrow 

Xoxoxoxxo Rachel :)