Let me just put it out there, with hormones and being a teen is happening, first days at work can be quite the struggle. I have never worked anywhere before and I was really hoping that this would be an amazing step into the real world. It wasn't. In the summers before this, I haven't had much luck with truly enjoying what I do in the summer. Today was just not for me.
As the bus pulled up to my house to pick me up, the nerves began to kick in. I began to sweat a little bit and my heart began to pound. I kept reminding myself that I would be fine and this is going to be a fresh start to all of my other summers. I stepped onto the bus and I was extremely overwhelmed. Kids were screaming, kids were yelling, the bus counselor was trying to teach everyone a cheer over their loud voices. It just wasn't for me. There was one boy who was also working in the same department I was in the camp and he was friendly at first and then just didn't seem that interested in becoming friends with me. Maybe he was still in the, "girls have cooties" phase.
When the bus arrived at the camp, the "fun" was going to begin. By "fun" I really mean over-whelming counselors trying to find their campers as they step off of the buses. I mean there were hundreds of counselors awaiting the buses arrivals. They were cheering, dancing, laughing. I felt out of place because I almost felt depressed. Was I suppose to feel that excited too?
As I made my way down the steps of the bus, my legs were shaking and I began to feel a sense of regret. The voice in the back of my head kept telling me, "the day didn't even begin. Calm down! Maybe you will like this." I walked into the office where I am going to be working and I felt a sense of relief. There were other kids my age working in the office. A lady who was very kind handed me my schedule for the summer and I just starred at it. It looked very dull and boring.
First period began. I was working at the security booth with 3 other boys and there was one lady in charge. She would basically tell us what to do when she wanted us to do it. For example, if a parent was dropping their child off at camp late, I would have to bring that child to their group on the campus. Not so bad, but boring because that only happened once in a blue moon.
Thirty minutes later when I successfully completed my first period of the summer, I was assigned to the gym. Under the description on my schedule about "gym" it said to not allow anyone in the gym with food. So I tried to find a positive in that assignment. I stood outside the gym and there was not a soul in sight. I contemplated that this is what I was going to be doing my entire summer. I felt like I was going to cry. That is when my day began to go down hill. It's like when you think you hit a home run and it just misses going over the left field wall and the ball suddenly makes its way into foul territory. A bad feeling in the pit of your stomach.
I'm not going to tell you all eleven periods of my day because that would bore you; I just wanted to tell you about my first day and that I was sort of miserable. Many of the kids working there didn't seem interested in talking to me. I felt very out of place. I didn't felt like this was what I really wanted to do my whole summer. I am an active person, not a person who would sit in an office all day and do file work.
When you are in a sticky situation like this, try your best to make friends or even find a positive in a negative. I am trying to give you guys advice when you make a commitment and it just isn't working for you but the truth is, I need advice. I spoke to my parents about it. If anyone has any advice for me I would love to hear it because I need help on how to go about this situation. I will keep updating you guys on how it is all going.
Thank you all so, so much!! Please comment. I would love to hear feedback!!! Thanks
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