Saying Goodbye

      Due to the town I live in, most of the people that live here go to sleep away camp.  I went to sleep away camp a really long time ago and I dreaded going.  I terminated my arrivals at camp when I was about 9 years old.  Many of the adults as well as kids thought I had some sort of issue or something because I did do what was "normal" in my town.  They were wrong.  They are wrong.  You don't have to follow what everyone else does.  Since I am my own person, I didn't go to sleep-away camp.  I didn't care about what everybody else did.  Now, most of my friends are going to sleep away camp tomorrow.  Yesterday was my last night to hang out with them before they are going to leave for 2 months.  It was extremely hard and depressing seeing them for a last time.  These people are my family and I love them so much.  All that was going through my mind was, "How could they just leave me?  Why do they go?  Why are they doing this?"  I began to actually feel a sense of anger.  I knew that there was nothing to be angry about but I'm human and I am going to feel this way.  What am I going to do without them for 2 months.  They are amazing to me.  I didn't cry when I was saying goodbye to everyone at my friends house.  I cried in the car.  In the moment, I didn't feel emotional but then it hit me.  I wasn't going to be able to text, call, or see my best friends.  It may not seem like a big deal to not see friends but these people are amazing.  Each and everyone one of my 15 best friends.  They all pick each other up when one is down, and wipe a tear off eye due to laughter.  We are a co-ed group of friends and that is what's amazing.  I could go on and on about my friends and how I am going to miss them but let's just come out of this situation on a positive note.  Since I am going to be working at a camp, I am going to meet new friends.  I am not going to forget about  my friends now but I am going to be as social as possible because they are all gone.  This summer I am going to and will hang out with new people not because I have to but because I need to.  It will help me heal from their departure.