It has been a while since my last posting. After posting how terrible my experience was at work, I contemplated for a while and thought about how I could make my summer better, and I did. I ended up working at the tennis part of the camp and it was amazing! I felt an overwhelming amount of satisfaction from teaching children how to hit a tennis ball!
I am now in school and I have to say it isn't at all that bad. Maybe I should make that sentence a tad more positive. School is actually pretty good. My classes are okay and my teachers are okay. There hasn't been a lot of homework since it's only the first full week of school. I have my first quiz tomorrow in geometry. When my teacher told the class that we were going to be having a quiz tomorrow with only one day to study for a five question quiz, I became very apprehensive. I am without a doubt an anxious person. When it comes to school, tests, homework, friends, my physical appearance, I become nervous. With that I mean I have a lot of stress; about everything and anything. It isn't the best quality a person can have but it's who I am.
On the very first day of school 9/3/13, at the very first bell 8:59am, I reminisced back to summer 2013. "Was it a good one? Did I accomplish everything I wanted to? Overall, did I learn anything new?" The answer was yes. Even though most of the long, difficult days socially and emotionally were tough, I accomplished one goal that I had for the summer. It was to do something outside of my comfort zone. Working at a day camp along with the responsibilities that came along with it was outside of what I am use to.
The only thing I was most nervous for on the first day of school wasn't who was in my classes. It was who I was going to sit with at lunch. As I arrived to lunch seventh period, I looked around. I noticed six girls I dislike from my grade, a swarm of freshmen, approximately twenty seniors, and about fifteen juniors. Where were my friends? Why was I put with people that I don't talk to? I had the biggest urge to cry and to crawl up into a little ball and wish I could just be at home where I am most comfortable; but I thought back to the goal I set for myself earlier in the summer. I couldn't just forget that I wanted to be exposed to situations outside of my comfort zone. I could have switched my lunch period. I could have switched many of my classes around just so I could have a friend that I am comfortable with. Instead, I chose not to change it. I learned so much over the summer that the skills I learned at work, I could use in school. And so I did! I now sit with a girl who is a junior and it turns out that we have a lot in common! For those of you nervous about lunch and who to sit with, give it time! Trust me, you are not the only person who doesn't have a friend in your lunch period. Maybe your best friend is in that very lunchroom and you don't even know it!
If you guys reading my blog have any questions or comments, please post them in the comments section below! I would be happy to answer your questions in more of my blogs! I am going to be writing blogs hopefully more than once a week about school and issues that most teenagers, including myself, might face! Thank you so much!
xoxoxooxox
Rachel:)
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